Resending post.... spiritual warfare.....
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- To: worship@praise.net
- Subject: Fwd: [Worship] Taking A Break!
- From: IEDJ123@aol.com
- Date: Fri, 29 May 1998 08:05:18 EDT
dear list I wrote Dan and forgot to send this post to the list as well.....forgive me..... Moe- you are on the right page with your thinking on this that often it is our pride that keeps us from finding a balance between being a Maratha and a Mary.... I know that often over business may stem from a wrong understanding (or no understanding) of what grace is. So often I see Christians still trying to "earn" their salvation! Others are so full of the Lord and bad with personal boundries that they get quickly in over their heads.... There is something I do and tell others to do......it is simple but hard to do..... Go into your bathroom- Shut the door -Lock it -And start practicing the word 'no' - -Say it soft, say it LOUD - and say it often -Until it flows as freely out of your mouth like the word yes does... -Scream it too -that is heaven, girl.... NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! See the kingdom of God did not come to an end because I said the words.... .....I am talking out my own experience with this....it is and will always be a struggle.....I see what needs to be done and love to help those around me that have a need.....and since I not only a worship leader, small group leader and pastor's wife - among everything else that I find myself involved in- I see so much that needs what I can give.....the key is for me to choose to do what God wants me to do...and not what either I want to do or can do because I have the ability to do. Just some thoughts.....I know others will have loads more.....and those theologically minded out there will fill you both with all the theology you will ever need on this issue (and more).........just having fun fellows....calm down....your theological tirades are a blessing and bring me back to those seminary days.....and my current life with my minister spouse.....! :)-- BEGIN included message
- To: danieljoelwilson@yahoo.com
- Subject: Re: [Worship] Taking A Break!
- From: IEDJ123@aol.com
- Date: Fri, 29 May 1998 07:31:39 EDT
Dan- You are into the burn-out zone- musicman! When practice and leading become a chore instead of a treat....one is cutting off one's life source-spiritually. No one -not even your preaching pastor should be in front that much everyweek. Often I know I neglect myself for the good of others and wind up short in my soul....understand the feeling...... I know the emotions you are describing well and so does my preacher husband. There is something we have learned (and are accountable for to a group of people) and that is to feel ourselves spiritually and continually so that we can feed those around us.......If we are in no longer in the presence of the Lord -how can we lead someone else there? Honestly Dan- I would doubt that there are many people on this list (who have been doing this for awhile) that have not felt the same as you do right now. Take comfort - you are in good company! Step back....the kingdom of God will not end if you are not filling in the gaps. Take the break you need. Talk -honestly- to the person who supervises your ministry (the worship leader or your pastor) and tell him what you told us. More than likely you will find that he/she has been there as well! Find the balance again and go and worship! Feed your soul. God is not honored by my burnout....He is honored by my obedience and worship. I am like you....I do all those things that "need" to be done.... and it bothers me when they are not done.....>what has been pointed out to me lately is that now the people around me a used to me doing it all and rely on that.> and that is neither good for them or me.... Look after yourself musicman....I hear ya. Go talk to that person that needs to bring relief to you before you get angry and resentful inside....and end up walking away hurt.... In His Service, Ingrid-- END included message
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