Re: [Worship] What to do in this situation??

["Vanessa Dolby" <psalm138@home.com>]

Chey--

I have been on the same journey for the past two years.  Two years ago, God
called my husband and I to leave the church that we had been planted in for
20 years.  I was the worship leader of this church.

When we found the church God called us to, I hoped and prayed that the Lord
would allow me to be used as a worship leader.  I was initially allowed only
to play keyboard and sing on the worship team.  6 months into our move
there, the pastors (who had been leading worship because their worship
leader had moved to Missouri), began to search for a new worship leader.  I
expressed my desire to lead to them.  They ended up bringing in someone from
outside the church to fill the role.  I was devastated.  I had to make a
choice at that point as to whether I was willing to NEVER lead worship again
if that was what the Lord wanted.  After much soul searching, prayer and
tears, I finally came to the point where I told the Lord that I would indeed
be content if I never led worship again.  The Lord was really dealing with
me in the area of pride (something I didn't really want to admit).  I'm not
saying that this is what is going on with you, only what the Lord had to do
in my heart.  I, too, was not even asked to sing a special until I had been
attending the church for nearly a year.  I told the Lord that I would not
pursue leading worship, and that if He wanted me to lead worship, I would
have to be asked by the pastor to lead worship.  I just settled in and
decided to do the best job I could as a keyboard player and singer on the
worship team.

Once I came to the point of totally surrendering my desire to lead worship
to the Lord, it was amazing to see what He did.
In April of 2000 (1 1/3 years after beginning to attend), I was asked to
lead worship for our annual Ladies retreat.  2 months later, I led corporate
worship for the first time in a Sunday evening service (at the request of my
pastor :-) ).  I led again in August and September, and then in November and
December.  I will be leading in January and February as well.  God has been
so faithful.

My advice--  let it be a God thing, not a human thing.  Give it all up to
the Lord and ask Him to open the door for opportunities to be used by Him.
Promotion comes from the Lord and He will certainly open the doors if you
allow Him the freedom to do so.

Be blessed--

Vanessa Dolby

I'm a God Chaser--are you??


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