Re: [Worship] What to do in this situation??

["mikechey" <mikechey@email.msn.com>]

Vanessa,

 the Lord spoke to me through this message..
thank you for sharing your experience with me.
I have been told everything from "just don't sing up there anymore"..
to "just keep singing and trusting God"..
but the real issue is will I still serve him if I never sing for him in
public..
the answer? ? Yes,....
because I havent sang for him or had prospects to sing for him for years.
We don't have to wait to ask to sing specials at our church but  I haven't
felt a call to do that yet...I still have issues with nervousness
anyway..and timing..
YES believe it or not I really WANT God's timing on this even if my heart's
desire is to minister with music in some capacity.
I also never felt that I should be leader of praise and worship here
either.. I just felt and so did a few others  that our leader  wasn't the
right one.. (tho God seems to be changing her into an "arm"..or a p&w leader
now..in some ways....she is actually working with the choir on harmonies now
which is awesome!)
I have just recently felt called to do some sort of leadership or ministry
in singing..
I have a TON of ideas for the choir, for christmas specials/caroling and for
other holidays and special times.. so many...and I know that God gave me the
talent and the desire for this..
BUT if I never ever lead anything..as long as I can have the friendships I
have and sing for him even if in the congregation or the choir, or at home
then that's fine.. I'll do it that way..
Thank the Lord for workign on this with me..
and for this list..which is helping me see my vision and be comfortable
leaving it in God's hands alone!
:)

in HIM!!!!!!!
Chey

----- Original Message -----
From: "Vanessa Dolby" <psalm138@home.com>
To: "mikechey" <mikechey@email.msn.com>; "Worship List" <worship@praise.net>
Sent: Friday, January 05, 2001 12:46 AM
Subject: Re: [Worship] What to do in this situation??


> Chey--
>
> I have been on the same journey for the past two years.  Two years ago,
God
> called my husband and I to leave the church that we had been planted in
for
> 20 years.  I was the worship leader of this church.
>
> When we found the church God called us to, I hoped and prayed that the
Lord
> would allow me to be used as a worship leader.  I was initially allowed
only
> to play keyboard and sing on the worship team.  6 months into our move
> there, the pastors (who had been leading worship because their worship
> leader had moved to Missouri), began to search for a new worship leader.
I
> expressed my desire to lead to them.  They ended up bringing in someone
from
> outside the church to fill the role.  I was devastated.  I had to make a
> choice at that point as to whether I was willing to NEVER lead worship
again
> if that was what the Lord wanted.  After much soul searching, prayer and
> tears, I finally came to the point where I told the Lord that I would
indeed
> be content if I never led worship again.  The Lord was really dealing with
> me in the area of pride (something I didn't really want to admit).  I'm
not
> saying that this is what is going on with you, only what the Lord had to
do
> in my heart.  I, too, was not even asked to sing a special until I had
been
> attending the church for nearly a year.  I told the Lord that I would not
> pursue leading worship, and that if He wanted me to lead worship, I would
> have to be asked by the pastor to lead worship.  I just settled in and
> decided to do the best job I could as a keyboard player and singer on the
> worship team.
>
> Once I came to the point of totally surrendering my desire to lead worship
> to the Lord, it was amazing to see what He did.
> In April of 2000 (1 1/3 years after beginning to attend), I was asked to
> lead worship for our annual Ladies retreat.  2 months later, I led
corporate
> worship for the first time in a Sunday evening service (at the request of
my
> pastor :-) ).  I led again in August and September, and then in November
and
> December.  I will be leading in January and February as well.  God has
been
> so faithful.
>
> My advice--  let it be a God thing, not a human thing.  Give it all up to
> the Lord and ask Him to open the door for opportunities to be used by Him.
> Promotion comes from the Lord and He will certainly open the doors if you
> allow Him the freedom to do so.
>
> Be blessed--
>
> Vanessa Dolby
>
> I'm a God Chaser--are you??
>



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